( Clementine gathers that steel further, pressing her shoulders back against the cold wall. She shakes her head, locking her jaw. Her hands become fists. She's good at this part is the thing. The vulnerable and quiet sides? No, they're not easy to do. It's not easy to admit everything she is feeling. It is not easy to talk about the many people that she lost.
It is not easy to say that sometimes she feels completely fucking worthless anyway, because of the blood on her hands
And she is sure as fuck not worth his life. So instead she gathers her steel, and she is hard. )
It's not abandoning me if I tell you to do it, if I want you to do it.
I don't want you to find me. I want you to take care of yourself. I want you to keep yourself safe, Louis, and you can't do that if you're taking care of me.
( Her voice is getting louder, harsher, clutching the network device harder as well, so hard it'd break if she had more strength. )
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Date: 2019-05-07 10:49 pm (UTC)It is not easy to say that sometimes she feels completely fucking worthless anyway, because of the blood on her hands
And she is sure as fuck not worth his life. So instead she gathers her steel, and she is hard. )
It's not abandoning me if I tell you to do it, if I want you to do it.
I don't want you to find me. I want you to take care of yourself. I want you to keep yourself safe, Louis, and you can't do that if you're taking care of me.
( Her voice is getting louder, harsher, clutching the network device harder as well, so hard it'd break if she had more strength. )