Looking forward to the misery If we aren't both drenched in our own tears by the end of it, we've basically failed
[ He's being teasing, but it legitimately means a lot to him that Louis trusts him enough to talk about anything like this. It means a lot that Louis wants him around period, after learning about what's going on with him. ]
I feel like I could say the same things about you, though So I guess we can just hate ourselves and support each other It evens out, right?
[ More teasing-actually-rooted-in-severity. It's nice, though? Even just openly addressing his own self-deprecation is nice? Like... he's being honest about things and it feels good. ]
People are the worst I don't know how anyone could ever hate on Luna But there's all those freaky townspeople kids at our school who like to get rude for no reason, so I wouldn't put it past them to pick on her
Kiiinda Okay kind of directly related Some weird glitter stuff like got on her? When she was trying to catch some mistletoe to get rid of the little fairy things in it And it definitely affected her But not like...something extreme Like she really sweetly asked me if she could kiss me on the cheek
So I was wondering from your like, Deer Experience If you think it was something it forced her to do? We didn't get to talk about it after that because we got washed onto the fucking Titanic But I've been wondering about it. About how stuff like that works around here I'm worried about her having been made to do something or if sometimes it's just like it makes you want to express your affections more, kinda thing If that makes sense? None of the glitter got on me, so I don't have personal experience
[Louis doesn't trust a lot of people with the truth. His is a life of emotional sleight-of-hand. He doesn't like people knowing how miserable he actually is- he prefers to keep the joker face on. Make other people happy. Trading his own feelings to bolster those around him. ]
maybe? i mean i'm willing to buy into that theory something has to work to make it less awful right?
D U D E did you kiss her? you can't just leave it on that i need to know all of it please god tell me i have zero love life here and i'm a helpless romantic i need to know everything
how did YOU feel after she asked you to kiss her? sans glitter also i'm pretty sure it can't change how you feel about a person stuff here like lower inhibitions and shit but relationships between people? unless there's memory bullshit going on - which i don't think the mistletoe was - it was all legit
[ It's interesting how the pair of them work almost oppositely despite having much in common at the core. Peter's method is much more a miserable disposition, numb himself over to feelings rather than put on a happy face like Louis does. But underneath, it's much the same β some kind of emotional sleight-of-hand. It means he doesn't have to face what's under all the layers on top, and neither does anyone else. ]
And even if it doesn't the good thing about theories is you can claim anything you want to until it gets proven or disproven So let's just never prove or disprove it
[ ....Peter's stupid. But he's grinning a little, dipping his head shyly at his friend's enthusiasm over this. He hasn't told anyone about it β things got... crazy, and he lost his memories, and then they were in Rapture and he got a bunch of slugs in him, and now they're finally back in Deerington and a lot of things still feel strange. There hasn't been time to slow down and just... enjoy the little moment that he and Luna shared on New Year's. But Peter's revisiting it now, reflecting on the memory. ]
Well a c t u a l l y She asked if she could kiss me And I said yes, so she kissed me on the cheek. I was going to ask if I could kiss hers back? But then the Titanic thing happened before I could do it
[ But Louis wants details. Peter's not good at sharing how he feels, but... maybe he can try. He kind of wants to try. He defaults to gloom and worrying about things a lot, but right now the fuzzy little feelings win out. ]
I know this sounds dorky but I felt really... happy I've never been kissed before, even just on the cheek? It was really nice and... soft It felt like a little fairy kissing me or something?
[ ......Suddenly he gets shy again and he's just kind of half-grinning, half-grimacing at himself. It's a good thing Louis can't see him. ]
That's honestly a huge relief, though. It didn't seem like either of us were any... different from our usual selves? But I just wanted to make sure She seemed happy too. I think we were both pretty nervous, but it was nice.
yes! we can let it remain an unsolved mystery for the rest of time
[This is adorable, this is making Louis' entire day forever. Even if he wasn't a helpless romantic (and he is, oh god, he is) it makes him so happy that his friend is happy. He wants Peter to have a good life here- as much of one as Deerington and his situation affords him. He deserves it, in Louis' opinion, completely. ]
this is over text so you're just going to have to imagine the delighted noises i'm making right now i promise they are super happy though and wow fuck the titanic why did it ruin everything
this is adorable my crops have been watered my heart is full
and YEAH that's what it's supposed to be like you don't change yourselves you're still you just together it should never be about changing for each other which sure sounds like it isn't
so are you going to ask her on another date? maybe the movies? that's a great low-pressure date scenario!
[ Oh my god Louis is so excited. ...It's honestly nice that someone's excited for him, though? Peter's just kind of covering his face for a moment, taking a little bit to process. Talking about his feelings is strange, but it's not necessarily a negative feeling. Not at all, actually. It's justβ new, and it does make him shy, but there's a happiness there, too. A soft little feeling associated with exploring things for the first time, things Peter has never gotten to do before. It's all quite innocent, and simple, but it still means a lot to him.
...Except he's Peter and that means his worries are always there not too deeply under the surface. And his nerves are shifting form from the pleasant little butterflies in his stomach, to the... other sort. The feeling of twisting in his stomach instead, anxieties squirming around. ]
Honestly.... I don't know I'd like to hang out with her alone I mean we hang out alone together all the time But on like a date?
I don't know if I should Like it'd be weird for me to do stuff like that, right?
[ Considering he's.... well. He's got those problems, you know, just a case of demonic possession and all. It seems wrong to even consider doing something so normal and fun with someone, even something like a harmless little date with a good friend. Like that kind of thing isn't for him. Getting closer to people... he shouldn't try to, right?
....And yet the relationship he shares with Luna just kind of transcends the concept of having to try at all. They're... a team, some kind of really important, special team. ]
She deserves to go on one and have fun, though I want to do things that make her happy So I'm.... torn about it
[Sorry, Peter, his own girlfriend is literal worlds away. He has to get his kicks somewhere and you've dropped this neatly into his lap. Besides, he genuinely wants Peter to be happy. Hell, Louis knows it's not easy finding happiness when your life is a festering pile of garbage. You have to take it where you can find it.]
no? why would it be weird i mean i get the Thing and all but i'm pretty sure that's not gonna be a dealbreaker for her she's a witch right? pretty sure she's coped with some WEIRD ass shit in her time
besides you deserve to be happy too why not kill two birds with one stone and be happy together? especially if being together makes you both happy
No you're right, she's a witch And she's dealt with some really weird stuff before She's not easily scared off from things, honestly she's.. like the bravest person I've ever met
[ Just some more gentle gushing over Luna's Greatness; this is fine. ]
I don't know though I'm not even sure what going on a date with someone even means Like I don't want to put some kind of weird pressure on anything I think she's probably the best friend I've ever had But it would be nice to take her out Just to have fun and relax, somewhere safe
I already found a good place, I think? I heard the arcade was nice and safe
[ ...It sure sounds like Peter already was forming plans for this and just kind of needed one last round of Talking It Out with someone else who isn't just his own mind. Because his own mind tends to be very negative and shut him down quickly. But sounding it out against Louis? This is... this is really nice. He's still Riddled With Worries, but he's starting to feel those pleasant fuzzies again now. ]
I don't think they have stuff like that where she's from, so it could be fun? I think she'd like playing games
see? and she's not gone running from you yet, right? that strongly suggests to me that she's not about to bail on you and you can go easy it doesn't have to be mad declarations of love right away feel out the waters maybe a little flirt here or there and maybe once you feel comfortable ask her for a really simple date
like yeah the arcade! it's super low pressure you can just have fun together and don't have to do the couple stuff and you can teach her a thing or two toes counts as bonding
[He will happily be a romance sounding board for the rest of his days. ]
She doesn't know about the Thing yet She knows I go weird sometimes, like uh. Have "attacks" But not the Thing exactly
[ Actually, unbeknownst to him, although Luna might not know it's a demon inhabiting his body, she has in fact talked to Paimon and is one of the few people who actually knows his name. Peter...doesn't even know that much yet. Somehow it's suiting that Luna actually knows more about this than he does. ]
But she hasn't run away yet, you're right There's a lot I need to tell her I just need to figure some things out first
Flirt?? Please tell me you're joking We don't all have your charming charisma
But thanks man, I do honestly appreciate the feedback I don't know what I'm doing. Ever What kind of things did you and Clem do together?
well that's okay i mean that's gonna be a long convo i'm sure it'll be fine tho i mean she seems pretty chill? just take your time with it figure shit out together
dude if you think i am any good at actual flirting i have some bubbles to pop like i was so bad at it so so so bad like "lol you drew a heart around out initials but MAYBE IT'S A POTATO???" bad
well back home we couldn't really do regular dates because apocalypse and everything our first date was literally sitting on the floor of her room eating stale pretzels with a single candle for ambience but in wonderland we went to the movies couple of dances went bowling hung by the lake- picnics are a great date idea fyi normal stuff just as a couple
[ Luna is very chill about things, and... honestly, deep down, Peter doesn't feel that she would turn away from him because of this? He just... doesn't. He knows she wouldn't. They've been through so much together, and their relationship is.. strong. He trusts her.
It'll come in time. He knows Louis is right. ]
Wait What's this about a potato You thought she drew you a potato, or she thought you drew her a potato?
That sounds really nice, though Just hanging together however you could
[ Stale pretzels or not. It's... nice. Really nice. Those little moments of spending time together in an environment where so much is at stake.... Peter's realised how that is, too. He and Luna have snagged little moments inbetween all the terror of this place. Which is one reason he really, really wants to hang out with her sometime when things aren't all horrifying. School doesn't count. ]
Do you have anything of hers here with you? Or any photos of her
[Depsite it being horribly embarrassing, Louis will never not tell the Potato Story.]
okay so back home me and Clem were having a quiet moment in the music room before we actually became an item she and i carved our initials into my piano then she drew a heart around them but i thought it was a potato and said so out loud she thought it was hilarious so bonus points for me and it made a great first valentines gimmick in Wonderland i left her a trail of potatoes around the mansion sure like twenty other people followed it too but it was still romantic as fuck
and it really was nice it's good to just have quiet moments too
[School never, ever counts.]
yeah i do! i got her picture in one of those boxes we got at christmas gimmie a sec
[ Peter's not one much for like.. romance things, but this? This is really really cute. And really really Louis.
He left an entire trail of potatoes ]
Holy wow dude That's incredible I wish someone would leave a trail of vegetables for me
[ He's laughing in amusement at the mental image, but it shows the degree of thoughtful that Louis is. And ahhh he's just looking at this photo for a long moment because it means something that makes his chest ache a little. Missing her must be so incredibly tough. ]
She is completely adorable, and yet I can see the Badass in her eyes at the same time You two make a really cute couple, man
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Date: 2020-04-02 10:07 pm (UTC)If we aren't both drenched in our own tears by the end of it, we've basically failed
[ He's being teasing, but it legitimately means a lot to him that Louis trusts him enough to talk about anything like this. It means a lot that Louis wants him around period, after learning about what's going on with him. ]
I feel like I could say the same things about you, though
So I guess we can just hate ourselves and support each other
It evens out, right?
[ More teasing-actually-rooted-in-severity. It's nice, though? Even just openly addressing his own self-deprecation is nice? Like... he's being honest about things and it feels good. ]
People are the worst
I don't know how anyone could ever hate on Luna
But there's all those freaky townspeople kids at our school who like to get rude for no reason, so I wouldn't put it past them to pick on her
Kiiinda
Okay kind of directly related
Some weird glitter stuff like got on her?
When she was trying to catch some mistletoe to get rid of the little fairy things in it
And it definitely affected her
But not like...something extreme
Like she really sweetly asked me if she could kiss me on the cheek
So I was wondering from your like, Deer Experience
If you think it was something it forced her to do?
We didn't get to talk about it after that because we got washed onto the fucking Titanic
But I've been wondering about it. About how stuff like that works around here
I'm worried about her having been made to do something or if sometimes it's just like it makes you want to express your affections more, kinda thing
If that makes sense?
None of the glitter got on me, so I don't have personal experience
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Date: 2020-04-04 12:36 am (UTC)you got it in one
[Louis doesn't trust a lot of people with the truth. His is a life of emotional sleight-of-hand. He doesn't like people knowing how miserable he actually is- he prefers to keep the joker face on. Make other people happy. Trading his own feelings to bolster those around him. ]
maybe?
i mean i'm willing to buy into that theory
something has to work to make it less awful right?
D U D E
did you kiss her?
you can't just leave it on that i need to know all of it
please god tell me i have zero love life here
and i'm a helpless romantic
i need to know everything
how did YOU feel after she asked you to kiss her?
sans glitter
also i'm pretty sure it can't change how you feel about a person
stuff here like lower inhibitions and shit
but relationships between people?
unless there's memory bullshit going on
- which i don't think the mistletoe was -
it was all legit
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Date: 2020-04-04 04:58 pm (UTC)And even if it doesn't
the good thing about theories is you can claim anything you want to until it gets proven or disproven
So let's just never prove or disprove it
[ ....Peter's stupid. But he's grinning a little, dipping his head shyly at his friend's enthusiasm over this. He hasn't told anyone about it β things got... crazy, and he lost his memories, and then they were in Rapture and he got a bunch of slugs in him, and now they're finally back in Deerington and a lot of things still feel strange. There hasn't been time to slow down and just... enjoy the little moment that he and Luna shared on New Year's. But Peter's revisiting it now, reflecting on the memory. ]
Well a c t u a l l y
She asked if she could kiss me
And I said yes, so she kissed me on the cheek.
I was going to ask if I could kiss hers back?
But then the Titanic thing happened before I could do it
[ But Louis wants details. Peter's not good at sharing how he feels, but... maybe he can try. He kind of wants to try. He defaults to gloom and worrying about things a lot, but right now the fuzzy little feelings win out. ]
I know this sounds dorky but I felt really... happy
I've never been kissed before, even just on the cheek?
It was really nice and... soft
It felt like a little fairy kissing me or something?
[ ......Suddenly he gets shy again and he's just kind of half-grinning, half-grimacing at himself. It's a good thing Louis can't see him. ]
That's honestly a huge relief, though.
It didn't seem like either of us were any... different from our usual selves? But I just wanted to make sure
She seemed happy too. I think we were both pretty nervous, but it was nice.
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Date: 2020-04-04 06:28 pm (UTC)we can let it remain an unsolved mystery
for the rest of time
[This is adorable, this is making Louis' entire day forever. Even if he wasn't a helpless romantic (and he is, oh god, he is) it makes him so happy that his friend is happy. He wants Peter to have a good life here- as much of one as Deerington and his situation affords him. He deserves it, in Louis' opinion, completely. ]
this is over text
so you're just going to have to imagine the delighted noises i'm making right now
i promise they are super happy though
and wow fuck the titanic why did it ruin everything
this is adorable
my crops have been watered
my heart is full
and YEAH
that's what it's supposed to be like
you don't change yourselves
you're still you
just together
it should never be about changing for each other
which sure sounds like it isn't
so
are you going to ask her on another date?
maybe the movies?
that's a great low-pressure date scenario!
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Date: 2020-04-08 05:35 am (UTC)...Except he's Peter and that means his worries are always there not too deeply under the surface. And his nerves are shifting form from the pleasant little butterflies in his stomach, to the... other sort. The feeling of twisting in his stomach instead, anxieties squirming around. ]
Honestly.... I don't know
I'd like to hang out with her alone
I mean we hang out alone together all the time
But on like a date?
I don't know if I should
Like it'd be weird for me to do stuff like that, right?
[ Considering he's.... well. He's got those problems, you know, just a case of demonic possession and all. It seems wrong to even consider doing something so normal and fun with someone, even something like a harmless little date with a good friend. Like that kind of thing isn't for him. Getting closer to people... he shouldn't try to, right?
....And yet the relationship he shares with Luna just kind of transcends the concept of having to try at all. They're... a team, some kind of really important, special team. ]
She deserves to go on one and have fun, though
I want to do things that make her happy
So I'm.... torn about it
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Date: 2020-04-09 10:16 pm (UTC)no?
why would it be weird
i mean i get the Thing and all
but i'm pretty sure that's not gonna be a dealbreaker for her
she's a witch right?
pretty sure she's coped with some WEIRD ass shit in her time
besides you deserve to be happy too
why not kill two birds with one stone and be happy together?
especially if being together makes you both happy
it's flawless logic and you know it :)
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Date: 2020-04-10 04:36 am (UTC)And she's dealt with some really weird stuff before
She's not easily scared off from things, honestly she's.. like the bravest person I've ever met
[ Just some more gentle gushing over Luna's Greatness; this is fine. ]
I don't know though
I'm not even sure what going on a date with someone even means
Like I don't want to put some kind of weird pressure on anything
I think she's probably the best friend I've ever had
But it would be nice to take her out
Just to have fun and relax, somewhere safe
I already found a good place, I think?
I heard the arcade was nice and safe
[ ...It sure sounds like Peter already was forming plans for this and just kind of needed one last round of Talking It Out with someone else who isn't just his own mind. Because his own mind tends to be very negative and shut him down quickly. But sounding it out against Louis? This is... this is really nice. He's still Riddled With Worries, but he's starting to feel those pleasant fuzzies again now. ]
I don't think they have stuff like that where she's from, so it could be fun?
I think she'd like playing games
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Date: 2020-04-10 06:34 pm (UTC)and she's not gone running from you yet, right?
that strongly suggests to me that she's not about to bail on you
and you can go easy
it doesn't have to be mad declarations of love right away
feel out the waters
maybe a little flirt here or there
and maybe once you feel comfortable
ask her for a really simple date
like yeah the arcade!
it's super low pressure
you can just have fun together and don't have to do the couple stuff
and you can teach her a thing or two
toes counts as bonding
[He will happily be a romance sounding board for the rest of his days. ]
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Date: 2020-04-11 06:44 am (UTC)Thing
yet
She knows I go weird sometimes, like uh. Have "attacks"
But not the Thing exactly
[ Actually, unbeknownst to him, although Luna might not know it's a demon inhabiting his body, she has in fact talked to Paimon and is one of the few people who actually knows his name. Peter...doesn't even know that much yet. Somehow it's suiting that Luna actually knows more about this than he does. ]
But she hasn't run away yet, you're right
There's a lot I need to tell her
I just need to figure some things out first
Flirt?? Please tell me you're joking
We don't all have your charming charisma
But thanks man, I do honestly appreciate the feedback
I don't know what I'm doing. Ever
What kind of things did you and Clem do together?
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Date: 2020-04-11 01:02 pm (UTC)i mean that's gonna be a long convo
i'm sure it'll be fine tho
i mean she seems pretty chill?
just take your time with it
figure shit out together
dude if you think i am any good at actual flirting
i have some bubbles to pop
like i was so bad at it
so so so bad
like "lol you drew a heart around out initials but MAYBE IT'S A POTATO???" bad
well back home we couldn't really do regular dates
because
apocalypse and everything
our first date was literally sitting on the floor of her room
eating stale pretzels with a single candle for ambience
but in wonderland we went to the movies
couple of dances
went bowling
hung by the lake- picnics are a great date idea fyi
normal stuff
just as a couple
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Date: 2020-04-17 11:23 pm (UTC)It'll come in time. He knows Louis is right. ]
Wait
What's this about a potato
You thought she drew you a potato, or she thought you drew her a potato?
That sounds really nice, though
Just hanging together however you could
[ Stale pretzels or not. It's... nice. Really nice. Those little moments of spending time together in an environment where so much is at stake.... Peter's realised how that is, too. He and Luna have snagged little moments inbetween all the terror of this place. Which is one reason he really, really wants to hang out with her sometime when things aren't all horrifying. School doesn't count. ]
Do you have anything of hers here with you?
Or any photos of her
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Date: 2020-04-18 04:01 pm (UTC)okay so back home
me and Clem were having a quiet moment in the music room
before we actually became an item
she and i carved our initials into my piano
then she drew a heart around them
but i thought it was a potato
and said so
out loud
she thought it was hilarious so bonus points for me
and it made a great first valentines gimmick in Wonderland
i left her a trail of potatoes around the mansion
sure like twenty other people followed it too
but it was still romantic as fuck
and it really was nice
it's good to just have quiet moments too
[School never, ever counts.]
yeah i do!
i got her picture in one of those boxes we got at christmas gimmie a sec
[See attachment Clementine.png]
there she is :)
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Date: 2020-04-23 04:58 am (UTC)He left an entire trail of potatoes ]
Holy wow dude
That's incredible
I wish someone would leave a trail of vegetables for me
[ He's laughing in amusement at the mental image, but it shows the degree of thoughtful that Louis is. And ahhh he's just looking at this photo for a long moment because it means something that makes his chest ache a little. Missing her must be so incredibly tough. ]
She is completely adorable, and yet I can see the Badass in her eyes at the same time
You two make a really cute couple, man
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Date: 2020-04-23 07:46 pm (UTC)why thank you
it impressed clem which was a winner for me
maybe one day luna will leave a trail of vegetable for you
if you're lucky
why thank you for noticing she IS adorable
and you're right
the badass really comes through in her eyes
thanks i appreciate that
[He misses her so goddamn much.]