[ Oh shit, another person saying he's the only one who's commented on theirs.... Peter, why did you have to belatedly discover deerlyBeloved and bring it back for your friends? His charm is making everyone really uncomfortable, but like on accident.
But hearing Louis talk about his girlfriend is actually really nice. ]
Dude that's really nice I mean, not the being trapped in weird places away from her What the hell's Wonderland, btw?
And what's she like?
[ He adds after a moment of wondering if he should. Asking about people's homes and lives and loved ones... it's a painful thing to bring up, isn't it? But he finds himself really wondering. There's still so much he doesn't know about his friends here. ]
[It's okay, Peter, Louis will always find your awkwardness utterly charming.]
yeah the being trapped away from her is less fun oka so have you read the book Alice in Wonderland? start off from there because this is gonna be a ride
Clem? she's amazing tough as nails she's survived out in our world by herself for the most part for ages she's funny too when she wants to be like sardonic funny she's brave and decent and gives a shit even when she shouldn't i love her and it sucks to be without her :(
[He could talk ALL FUCKING WEEK about how amazing Clem is, Peter got the short version. ]
Wait are you about to tell me you've been to the Wonderland from Alice in Wonderland? Did you meet Tweedledee and Tweedledum or whatever their names were
[ o m g... How is Louis's life so interesting and yet horrific all at the same time? ]
Oh man She sounds awesome And like she could probably kick my ass
[ It's light-hearted (very true though), but... through that, he is genuinely sorry. Being here without her must be so fucking hard on Louis... esspecially with the world he'd come from. ]
I've never been in a relationship before But you guys make it sound really nice
yes yes i am absolutely gonna tell you that or some...fucking weird version of it anyway i met the tweedles they were creepy-ass little girls
[This is the life he's lead, isn't it great?]
she could kick EVERYONE'S ass
it is pretty nice just having someone you can talk to you know? someone who's there for you and who you can be there for them i recommend maybe we just need to get you someone how about Luna? you guys went to that party together, right?
because if there can be a creepy little girl there always will be i mean there were more creepy girls than the tweedles there were also the three sisters and alice kinda counted too grand total of six creepy girls!
i wasn't there by choice it was the same deal as deerington except it wasn't a dream probably just woke up there one day like oh cool i'm in wonderland now i guess
just friends you and Luna despite going to a dance together
JUST
FRIENDS
eh it's not all that weird i mean before clem i never had before i mean sure undead apocalypse and everything but i probably wouldn't even before then i wasn't exactly popular in school
Were they mean and creepy too? Or just creepy but not mean
God that sounds horrible though So basically Deerington isn't the only terrifying place a person could wake up in That's wonderful, really
[ ....That awkward moment when talking about horror realms a person is sent to against their will is slightly less scary than what's happening now in this conversation. ]
She asked me as a friend A friend!!! Like all that stuff you said about having someone to talk to and who's there for you and vice-versa We're like that, but like friends
[ Though as slightly unsettling and shy as this all makes him feel, it's actually quite nice, too. To just kind of talk about stuff like this with another guy his age. ]
You weren't popular? You? For real? I wasn't either, though The popular kids were mostly classic snobs, like out of a movie kind of thing
eh mostly creepy the sisters could be catty sometimes but honestly they leaned heavy on the drug-induced-whimsy than anything else because WONDERLAND
i know right! and this place had literal mirror versions of everyone like they lived in the mirror realm but sometimes switched places and were dickheads my Mirror was a fucking asshole like i think he was allergic to smiling and people
yeah no the other kids hated me honestly most of them back home only tolerate me because they have to even now i'm kind of A LOT for some people and i used to be a lot worse so
[ Peter is, actually, struck speechless with that little interlude. The fact his friend just put it smack-dab in the middle with no comment makes it even harder to form a concrete reaction to. Damn, Louis is good at what he does.
So he just...awkwardly addresses the other stuff first. Can you feel him shifting uneasily?? ]
Jesus I'm glad you got out of there Though I guess here isn't any better
[ From a twisted Wonderland world to some kind of Hellish Maine town. What the actual fuck. ]
A lot for some people, huh Well I'm definitely not enough, so I guess we can meet in the middle
[ Team self-deprecation, even if they're at opposite ends of the spectrum? He hopes he doesn't sound nosy asking this stuff, but there's really a lot about the other boy Peter still doesn't know. ]
What kind of a lot worse did you used to be, though?
[Louis is the god-king of what he does and that's just what Peter has to live with.]
her eis ironically better because when it isn't trying to kill us we can like have jobs and go out and do regular shit that's nice i like regular shit
look at us! between us we make a single functional person go team us!!!
[Team self-depreciation for the win! There's hesitation at first because Louis is always nervous about revealing the worst parts of his past. A little floating ... as he considers his response.]
it's a really shitty story i mean i trust you to tell you but it's really bad i was a really shitty person so you know forewarning beforehand
Oh hey, do you have a job here? I'm gonna come hassle you
[ Actually Louis has probably already told him about any potential jobs, but Peter... is Peter. Who knows if he'll be able to remember anything extra like that told to him? His mind's a scrambled mess. ]
It's ok if you don't want to talk about it though, no pressure man But I'm here to listen to anything you feel ok talking about. It won't scare me off
[ And Peter has some Dark Parts of his past, too. Things nobody here knows about him yet... would probably change the way they look at him if they knew. He won't pressure Louis, though. There's an understanding he's felt between the two of them, a respect. For all the teasing and light-heartedness, that respect runs deep. ]
Wow ok, now I'm blushing R U happy now U jerk
But seriously, a lot of people at school seem to think we're uh together I don't mind or anything, like it doesn't bother me if they think that I just don't want her to get like a bad reputation or something? Because of me She works really hard and is a really good student, and she's so incredibly nice Like so nice I don't even know how she's real And you know I'm like fucked up
[ As in harbouring a fucking demonic entity. Maybe most of the kids at school don't explicitly know that just yet, but it's pretty clear Peter's.... different. Maybe even dangerous. And while he was initially very daunted by the thought of Louis knowing about the demon thing, now Peter feels kind of relieved. He can... talk about it with him. It's okay to. And it doesn't feel quite so lonely. ]
i have two jobs here i work in the bowling alley and i play piano two nights a week in pixies that's my fave job tbh i love it there you should totes come by
it's okay just a pre warning i guess we should probably do this in person its a really shitty story to tell over text :(
YES YES I AM HAPPY BLUSH!!
why would she get a bad rep? you're an awesome guy fucked up or not and you deserve some happiness too yknow and honestly if she's spending that much time with you? there's a pretty good chance she's into you just saying
[Louis is always there to be a demonic entity support. Hell, he feels comfortable enough with Peter to let him know the horrible, shitty truth of his past. It's not something a lot of people are afforded willingly.]
Oh, that's nice, man I haven't been to either of those places yet but I'll definitely have to swing by I still need to see you in action on the piano
And oh, yeah no, let's do lunch or something sometime Share dark parts of pasts It'll be great
[ He's not really aware of the little shifts in himself, but Peter Graham sure did just agree to meet up and "have lunch or something" and talk and do normal teen things. With.. some inevitable pain involved, maybe β discussing such a heavy story won't be sunshine and rainbows, but still. Still. ]
I'm really not awesome, though Like I know that sounds all "look at me, I'm dripping with self-hatred, come comfort me" But I legitimately am the worst, like as a fact And I guess I'm just thinking I might have some kind of negative effect on her Like people might even talk bad about her because of me or something
[ He'd recently learned that was a thing that had happened at Luna's old school? People talked bad about her and called her... really ugly names. And he absolutely hates that thought, much less ever being some part of it happening to his friend here, too. ]
And I don't know if she's even got time to think about anything like that to begin with She's had to deal with so much here
Though I do want to ask you something that's kinda related to this Remember at New Year's how you warned me not to eat any of the food because it could make people do weird stuff? Do you know anything about the mistletoe here?
it's a date a depressing friend date where we end up more miserable than when we started super fun
[Such were the ways of Deerington. Were any of the teens here from a normal, not-trauma filled life? He doubts it. ]
i guess i'll just have to disagree on that one because everyone is worth something but then i have a habit of finding worth in everyone so long as that person isn't me so i might be talking shit but i still think you're a great guy anyway so there and people just need to stop talking shit about other people like theirs doesn't stink or whatever people can be assholes sometimes :|
i do remember warning you about the food thing i think the mistletoe made people really... AFFECTIONATE? i didn't deal with it myself i kept the fuck away so this is kinda related huh?
Looking forward to the misery If we aren't both drenched in our own tears by the end of it, we've basically failed
[ He's being teasing, but it legitimately means a lot to him that Louis trusts him enough to talk about anything like this. It means a lot that Louis wants him around period, after learning about what's going on with him. ]
I feel like I could say the same things about you, though So I guess we can just hate ourselves and support each other It evens out, right?
[ More teasing-actually-rooted-in-severity. It's nice, though? Even just openly addressing his own self-deprecation is nice? Like... he's being honest about things and it feels good. ]
People are the worst I don't know how anyone could ever hate on Luna But there's all those freaky townspeople kids at our school who like to get rude for no reason, so I wouldn't put it past them to pick on her
Kiiinda Okay kind of directly related Some weird glitter stuff like got on her? When she was trying to catch some mistletoe to get rid of the little fairy things in it And it definitely affected her But not like...something extreme Like she really sweetly asked me if she could kiss me on the cheek
So I was wondering from your like, Deer Experience If you think it was something it forced her to do? We didn't get to talk about it after that because we got washed onto the fucking Titanic But I've been wondering about it. About how stuff like that works around here I'm worried about her having been made to do something or if sometimes it's just like it makes you want to express your affections more, kinda thing If that makes sense? None of the glitter got on me, so I don't have personal experience
[Louis doesn't trust a lot of people with the truth. His is a life of emotional sleight-of-hand. He doesn't like people knowing how miserable he actually is- he prefers to keep the joker face on. Make other people happy. Trading his own feelings to bolster those around him. ]
maybe? i mean i'm willing to buy into that theory something has to work to make it less awful right?
D U D E did you kiss her? you can't just leave it on that i need to know all of it please god tell me i have zero love life here and i'm a helpless romantic i need to know everything
how did YOU feel after she asked you to kiss her? sans glitter also i'm pretty sure it can't change how you feel about a person stuff here like lower inhibitions and shit but relationships between people? unless there's memory bullshit going on - which i don't think the mistletoe was - it was all legit
[ It's interesting how the pair of them work almost oppositely despite having much in common at the core. Peter's method is much more a miserable disposition, numb himself over to feelings rather than put on a happy face like Louis does. But underneath, it's much the same β some kind of emotional sleight-of-hand. It means he doesn't have to face what's under all the layers on top, and neither does anyone else. ]
And even if it doesn't the good thing about theories is you can claim anything you want to until it gets proven or disproven So let's just never prove or disprove it
[ ....Peter's stupid. But he's grinning a little, dipping his head shyly at his friend's enthusiasm over this. He hasn't told anyone about it β things got... crazy, and he lost his memories, and then they were in Rapture and he got a bunch of slugs in him, and now they're finally back in Deerington and a lot of things still feel strange. There hasn't been time to slow down and just... enjoy the little moment that he and Luna shared on New Year's. But Peter's revisiting it now, reflecting on the memory. ]
Well a c t u a l l y She asked if she could kiss me And I said yes, so she kissed me on the cheek. I was going to ask if I could kiss hers back? But then the Titanic thing happened before I could do it
[ But Louis wants details. Peter's not good at sharing how he feels, but... maybe he can try. He kind of wants to try. He defaults to gloom and worrying about things a lot, but right now the fuzzy little feelings win out. ]
I know this sounds dorky but I felt really... happy I've never been kissed before, even just on the cheek? It was really nice and... soft It felt like a little fairy kissing me or something?
[ ......Suddenly he gets shy again and he's just kind of half-grinning, half-grimacing at himself. It's a good thing Louis can't see him. ]
That's honestly a huge relief, though. It didn't seem like either of us were any... different from our usual selves? But I just wanted to make sure She seemed happy too. I think we were both pretty nervous, but it was nice.
yes! we can let it remain an unsolved mystery for the rest of time
[This is adorable, this is making Louis' entire day forever. Even if he wasn't a helpless romantic (and he is, oh god, he is) it makes him so happy that his friend is happy. He wants Peter to have a good life here- as much of one as Deerington and his situation affords him. He deserves it, in Louis' opinion, completely. ]
this is over text so you're just going to have to imagine the delighted noises i'm making right now i promise they are super happy though and wow fuck the titanic why did it ruin everything
this is adorable my crops have been watered my heart is full
and YEAH that's what it's supposed to be like you don't change yourselves you're still you just together it should never be about changing for each other which sure sounds like it isn't
so are you going to ask her on another date? maybe the movies? that's a great low-pressure date scenario!
[ Oh my god Louis is so excited. ...It's honestly nice that someone's excited for him, though? Peter's just kind of covering his face for a moment, taking a little bit to process. Talking about his feelings is strange, but it's not necessarily a negative feeling. Not at all, actually. It's justβ new, and it does make him shy, but there's a happiness there, too. A soft little feeling associated with exploring things for the first time, things Peter has never gotten to do before. It's all quite innocent, and simple, but it still means a lot to him.
...Except he's Peter and that means his worries are always there not too deeply under the surface. And his nerves are shifting form from the pleasant little butterflies in his stomach, to the... other sort. The feeling of twisting in his stomach instead, anxieties squirming around. ]
Honestly.... I don't know I'd like to hang out with her alone I mean we hang out alone together all the time But on like a date?
I don't know if I should Like it'd be weird for me to do stuff like that, right?
[ Considering he's.... well. He's got those problems, you know, just a case of demonic possession and all. It seems wrong to even consider doing something so normal and fun with someone, even something like a harmless little date with a good friend. Like that kind of thing isn't for him. Getting closer to people... he shouldn't try to, right?
....And yet the relationship he shares with Luna just kind of transcends the concept of having to try at all. They're... a team, some kind of really important, special team. ]
She deserves to go on one and have fun, though I want to do things that make her happy So I'm.... torn about it
[Sorry, Peter, his own girlfriend is literal worlds away. He has to get his kicks somewhere and you've dropped this neatly into his lap. Besides, he genuinely wants Peter to be happy. Hell, Louis knows it's not easy finding happiness when your life is a festering pile of garbage. You have to take it where you can find it.]
no? why would it be weird i mean i get the Thing and all but i'm pretty sure that's not gonna be a dealbreaker for her she's a witch right? pretty sure she's coped with some WEIRD ass shit in her time
besides you deserve to be happy too why not kill two birds with one stone and be happy together? especially if being together makes you both happy
No you're right, she's a witch And she's dealt with some really weird stuff before She's not easily scared off from things, honestly she's.. like the bravest person I've ever met
[ Just some more gentle gushing over Luna's Greatness; this is fine. ]
I don't know though I'm not even sure what going on a date with someone even means Like I don't want to put some kind of weird pressure on anything I think she's probably the best friend I've ever had But it would be nice to take her out Just to have fun and relax, somewhere safe
I already found a good place, I think? I heard the arcade was nice and safe
[ ...It sure sounds like Peter already was forming plans for this and just kind of needed one last round of Talking It Out with someone else who isn't just his own mind. Because his own mind tends to be very negative and shut him down quickly. But sounding it out against Louis? This is... this is really nice. He's still Riddled With Worries, but he's starting to feel those pleasant fuzzies again now. ]
I don't think they have stuff like that where she's from, so it could be fun? I think she'd like playing games
see? and she's not gone running from you yet, right? that strongly suggests to me that she's not about to bail on you and you can go easy it doesn't have to be mad declarations of love right away feel out the waters maybe a little flirt here or there and maybe once you feel comfortable ask her for a really simple date
like yeah the arcade! it's super low pressure you can just have fun together and don't have to do the couple stuff and you can teach her a thing or two toes counts as bonding
[He will happily be a romance sounding board for the rest of his days. ]
She doesn't know about the Thing yet She knows I go weird sometimes, like uh. Have "attacks" But not the Thing exactly
[ Actually, unbeknownst to him, although Luna might not know it's a demon inhabiting his body, she has in fact talked to Paimon and is one of the few people who actually knows his name. Peter...doesn't even know that much yet. Somehow it's suiting that Luna actually knows more about this than he does. ]
But she hasn't run away yet, you're right There's a lot I need to tell her I just need to figure some things out first
Flirt?? Please tell me you're joking We don't all have your charming charisma
But thanks man, I do honestly appreciate the feedback I don't know what I'm doing. Ever What kind of things did you and Clem do together?
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Date: 2020-03-16 12:06 am (UTC)But hearing Louis talk about his girlfriend is actually really nice. ]
Dude that's really nice
I mean, not the being trapped in weird places away from her
What the hell's Wonderland, btw?
And what's she like?
[ He adds after a moment of wondering if he should. Asking about people's homes and lives and loved ones... it's a painful thing to bring up, isn't it? But he finds himself really wondering. There's still so much he doesn't know about his friends here. ]
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Date: 2020-03-17 09:22 pm (UTC)yeah the being trapped away from her is less fun
oka so have you read the book Alice in Wonderland?
start off from there because this is gonna be a ride
Clem?
she's amazing
tough as nails
she's survived out in our world by herself for the most part for ages
she's funny too when she wants to be
like sardonic funny
she's brave and decent and gives a shit even when she shouldn't
i love her and it sucks to be without her :(
[He could talk ALL FUCKING WEEK about how amazing Clem is, Peter got the short version. ]
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Date: 2020-03-21 06:56 pm (UTC)Did you meet Tweedledee and Tweedledum or whatever their names were
[ o m g... How is Louis's life so interesting and yet horrific all at the same time? ]
Oh man
She sounds awesome
And like she could probably kick my ass
[ It's light-hearted (very true though), but... through that, he is genuinely sorry. Being here without her must be so fucking hard on Louis... esspecially with the world he'd come from. ]
I've never been in a relationship before
But you guys make it sound really nice
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Date: 2020-03-21 10:35 pm (UTC)yes i am absolutely gonna tell you that
or some...fucking weird version of it anyway
i met the tweedles
they were creepy-ass little girls
[This is the life he's lead, isn't it great?]
she could kick EVERYONE'S ass
it is pretty nice
just having someone you can talk to you know?
someone who's there for you and who you can be there for them
i recommend
maybe we just need to get you someone
how about Luna?
you guys went to that party together, right?
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Date: 2020-03-22 06:04 am (UTC)Why is it always a creepy little girl
Or in this case, two of them
Why were you there??
[ HE HAS MANY CONCERNS. ]
Oh
Shit no, sorry, I wasn't complaining
I'm definitely not relationship material
And Luna's amazing, but we're friends
[ Though "friends" doesn't seem to really encapsulate his relationship with Luna; she's so much more than just that. ]
I was just kind of thinking about how weird it probably is that I've never dated anyone before
I guess most people our age probably have, a lot
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Date: 2020-03-22 06:39 pm (UTC)there always will be
i mean there were more creepy girls than the tweedles
there were also the three sisters
and alice kinda counted too
grand total of six creepy girls!
i wasn't there by choice
it was the same deal as deerington
except it wasn't a dream probably
just woke up there one day like oh cool i'm in wonderland now i guess
just friends
you and Luna
despite going to a dance together
JUST
FRIENDS
eh it's not all that weird
i mean before clem i never had before
i mean sure undead apocalypse and everything
but i probably wouldn't even before then
i wasn't exactly popular in school
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Date: 2020-03-23 03:28 am (UTC)God that sounds horrible though
So basically Deerington isn't the only terrifying place a person could wake up in
That's wonderful, really
[ ....That awkward moment when talking about horror realms a person is sent to against their will is slightly less scary than what's happening now in this conversation. ]
She asked me as a friend
A friend!!!
Like all that stuff you said about having someone to talk to and who's there for you and vice-versa
We're like that, but like friends
[ Though as slightly unsettling and shy as this all makes him feel, it's actually quite nice, too. To just kind of talk about stuff like this with another guy his age. ]
You weren't popular? You?
For real?
I wasn't either, though
The popular kids were mostly classic snobs, like out of a movie kind of thing
1/3
Date: 2020-03-24 10:50 pm (UTC)mostly creepy
the sisters could be catty sometimes
but honestly they leaned heavy on the drug-induced-whimsy than anything else
because WONDERLAND
i know right!
and this place had literal mirror versions of everyone
like they lived in the mirror realm
but sometimes switched places and were dickheads
my Mirror was a fucking asshole
like i think he was allergic to smiling
and people
one sec
2/2
Date: 2020-03-24 10:51 pm (UTC)3/3
Date: 2020-03-24 10:53 pm (UTC)honestly most of them back home only tolerate me because they have to even now
i'm kind of A LOT for some people
and i used to be a lot worse
so
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Date: 2020-03-27 02:14 am (UTC)So he just...awkwardly addresses the other stuff first. Can you feel him shifting uneasily?? ]
Jesus
I'm glad you got out of there
Though I guess here isn't any better
[ From a twisted Wonderland world to some kind of Hellish Maine town. What the actual fuck. ]
A lot for some people, huh
Well I'm definitely not enough, so I guess we can meet in the middle
[ Team self-deprecation, even if they're at opposite ends of the spectrum? He hopes he doesn't sound nosy asking this stuff, but there's really a lot about the other boy Peter still doesn't know. ]
What kind of a lot worse did you used to be, though?
Also I see what you did there
[ .........He adds at the very end, lamely. ]
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Date: 2020-03-27 10:52 pm (UTC)her eis ironically better
because when it isn't trying to kill us
we can like have jobs and go out and do regular shit
that's nice
i like regular shit
look at us!
between us we make a single functional person
go team us!!!
[Team self-depreciation for the win! There's hesitation at first because Louis is always nervous about revealing the worst parts of his past. A little floating ... as he considers his response.]
it's a really shitty story
i mean i trust you to tell you
but it's
really bad
i was a really shitty person
so you know
forewarning beforehand
did what ;)
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Date: 2020-03-29 04:30 am (UTC)I'm gonna come hassle you
[ Actually Louis has probably already told him about any potential jobs, but Peter... is Peter. Who knows if he'll be able to remember anything extra like that told to him? His mind's a scrambled mess. ]
It's ok if you don't want to talk about it though, no pressure man
But I'm here to listen to anything you feel ok talking about. It won't scare me off
[ And Peter has some Dark Parts of his past, too. Things nobody here knows about him yet... would probably change the way they look at him if they knew. He won't pressure Louis, though. There's an understanding he's felt between the two of them, a respect. For all the teasing and light-heartedness, that respect runs deep. ]
Wow ok, now I'm blushing
R U happy now
U jerk
But seriously, a lot of people at school seem to think we're uh
together
I don't mind or anything, like it doesn't bother me if they think that
I just don't want her to get like a bad reputation or something? Because of me
She works really hard and is a really good student, and she's so incredibly nice
Like so nice I don't even know how she's real
And you know
I'm like
fucked up
[ As in harbouring a fucking demonic entity. Maybe most of the kids at school don't explicitly know that just yet, but it's pretty clear Peter's.... different. Maybe even dangerous. And while he was initially very daunted by the thought of Louis knowing about the demon thing, now Peter feels kind of relieved. He can... talk about it with him. It's okay to. And it doesn't feel quite so lonely. ]
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Date: 2020-03-29 11:00 pm (UTC)i work in the bowling alley
and i play piano two nights a week in pixies
that's my fave job tbh
i love it there
you should totes come by
it's okay just
a pre warning i guess
we should probably do this in person
its a really shitty story to tell over text :(
YES
YES I AM HAPPY
BLUSH!!
why would she get a bad rep?
you're an awesome guy
fucked up or not
and you deserve some happiness too yknow
and honestly if she's spending that much time with you?
there's a pretty good chance she's into you
just saying
[Louis is always there to be a demonic entity support. Hell, he feels comfortable enough with Peter to let him know the horrible, shitty truth of his past. It's not something a lot of people are afforded willingly.]
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Date: 2020-03-31 08:41 am (UTC)I haven't been to either of those places yet but I'll definitely have to swing by
I still need to see you in action on the piano
And oh, yeah no, let's do lunch or something sometime
Share dark parts of pasts
It'll be great
[ He's not really aware of the little shifts in himself, but Peter Graham sure did just agree to meet up and "have lunch or something" and talk and do normal teen things. With.. some inevitable pain involved, maybe β discussing such a heavy story won't be sunshine and rainbows, but still. Still. ]
I'm really not awesome, though
Like I know that sounds all "look at me, I'm dripping with self-hatred, come comfort me"
But I legitimately am the worst, like as a fact
And I guess I'm just thinking I might have some kind of negative effect on her
Like people might even talk bad about her because of me or something
[ He'd recently learned that was a thing that had happened at Luna's old school? People talked bad about her and called her... really ugly names. And he absolutely hates that thought, much less ever being some part of it happening to his friend here, too. ]
And I don't know if she's even got time to think about anything like that to begin with
She's had to deal with so much here
Though I do want to ask you something that's kinda related to this
Remember at New Year's how you warned me not to eat any of the food because it could make people do weird stuff?
Do you know anything about the mistletoe here?
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Date: 2020-04-01 10:27 pm (UTC)have yourself an ~experience~
it's a date
a depressing friend date where we end up more miserable than when we started
super fun
[Such were the ways of Deerington. Were any of the teens here from a normal, not-trauma filled life? He doubts it. ]
i guess i'll just have to disagree on that one
because everyone is worth something
but then i have a habit of finding worth in everyone
so long as that person isn't me
so i might be talking shit
but i still think you're a great guy anyway
so there
and people just need to stop talking shit about other people
like theirs doesn't stink or whatever
people can be assholes sometimes :|
i do remember warning you about the food thing
i think the mistletoe made people really... AFFECTIONATE?
i didn't deal with it myself i kept the fuck away
so this is kinda related huh?
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Date: 2020-04-02 10:07 pm (UTC)If we aren't both drenched in our own tears by the end of it, we've basically failed
[ He's being teasing, but it legitimately means a lot to him that Louis trusts him enough to talk about anything like this. It means a lot that Louis wants him around period, after learning about what's going on with him. ]
I feel like I could say the same things about you, though
So I guess we can just hate ourselves and support each other
It evens out, right?
[ More teasing-actually-rooted-in-severity. It's nice, though? Even just openly addressing his own self-deprecation is nice? Like... he's being honest about things and it feels good. ]
People are the worst
I don't know how anyone could ever hate on Luna
But there's all those freaky townspeople kids at our school who like to get rude for no reason, so I wouldn't put it past them to pick on her
Kiiinda
Okay kind of directly related
Some weird glitter stuff like got on her?
When she was trying to catch some mistletoe to get rid of the little fairy things in it
And it definitely affected her
But not like...something extreme
Like she really sweetly asked me if she could kiss me on the cheek
So I was wondering from your like, Deer Experience
If you think it was something it forced her to do?
We didn't get to talk about it after that because we got washed onto the fucking Titanic
But I've been wondering about it. About how stuff like that works around here
I'm worried about her having been made to do something or if sometimes it's just like it makes you want to express your affections more, kinda thing
If that makes sense?
None of the glitter got on me, so I don't have personal experience
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Date: 2020-04-04 12:36 am (UTC)you got it in one
[Louis doesn't trust a lot of people with the truth. His is a life of emotional sleight-of-hand. He doesn't like people knowing how miserable he actually is- he prefers to keep the joker face on. Make other people happy. Trading his own feelings to bolster those around him. ]
maybe?
i mean i'm willing to buy into that theory
something has to work to make it less awful right?
D U D E
did you kiss her?
you can't just leave it on that i need to know all of it
please god tell me i have zero love life here
and i'm a helpless romantic
i need to know everything
how did YOU feel after she asked you to kiss her?
sans glitter
also i'm pretty sure it can't change how you feel about a person
stuff here like lower inhibitions and shit
but relationships between people?
unless there's memory bullshit going on
- which i don't think the mistletoe was -
it was all legit
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Date: 2020-04-04 04:58 pm (UTC)And even if it doesn't
the good thing about theories is you can claim anything you want to until it gets proven or disproven
So let's just never prove or disprove it
[ ....Peter's stupid. But he's grinning a little, dipping his head shyly at his friend's enthusiasm over this. He hasn't told anyone about it β things got... crazy, and he lost his memories, and then they were in Rapture and he got a bunch of slugs in him, and now they're finally back in Deerington and a lot of things still feel strange. There hasn't been time to slow down and just... enjoy the little moment that he and Luna shared on New Year's. But Peter's revisiting it now, reflecting on the memory. ]
Well a c t u a l l y
She asked if she could kiss me
And I said yes, so she kissed me on the cheek.
I was going to ask if I could kiss hers back?
But then the Titanic thing happened before I could do it
[ But Louis wants details. Peter's not good at sharing how he feels, but... maybe he can try. He kind of wants to try. He defaults to gloom and worrying about things a lot, but right now the fuzzy little feelings win out. ]
I know this sounds dorky but I felt really... happy
I've never been kissed before, even just on the cheek?
It was really nice and... soft
It felt like a little fairy kissing me or something?
[ ......Suddenly he gets shy again and he's just kind of half-grinning, half-grimacing at himself. It's a good thing Louis can't see him. ]
That's honestly a huge relief, though.
It didn't seem like either of us were any... different from our usual selves? But I just wanted to make sure
She seemed happy too. I think we were both pretty nervous, but it was nice.
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Date: 2020-04-04 06:28 pm (UTC)we can let it remain an unsolved mystery
for the rest of time
[This is adorable, this is making Louis' entire day forever. Even if he wasn't a helpless romantic (and he is, oh god, he is) it makes him so happy that his friend is happy. He wants Peter to have a good life here- as much of one as Deerington and his situation affords him. He deserves it, in Louis' opinion, completely. ]
this is over text
so you're just going to have to imagine the delighted noises i'm making right now
i promise they are super happy though
and wow fuck the titanic why did it ruin everything
this is adorable
my crops have been watered
my heart is full
and YEAH
that's what it's supposed to be like
you don't change yourselves
you're still you
just together
it should never be about changing for each other
which sure sounds like it isn't
so
are you going to ask her on another date?
maybe the movies?
that's a great low-pressure date scenario!
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Date: 2020-04-08 05:35 am (UTC)...Except he's Peter and that means his worries are always there not too deeply under the surface. And his nerves are shifting form from the pleasant little butterflies in his stomach, to the... other sort. The feeling of twisting in his stomach instead, anxieties squirming around. ]
Honestly.... I don't know
I'd like to hang out with her alone
I mean we hang out alone together all the time
But on like a date?
I don't know if I should
Like it'd be weird for me to do stuff like that, right?
[ Considering he's.... well. He's got those problems, you know, just a case of demonic possession and all. It seems wrong to even consider doing something so normal and fun with someone, even something like a harmless little date with a good friend. Like that kind of thing isn't for him. Getting closer to people... he shouldn't try to, right?
....And yet the relationship he shares with Luna just kind of transcends the concept of having to try at all. They're... a team, some kind of really important, special team. ]
She deserves to go on one and have fun, though
I want to do things that make her happy
So I'm.... torn about it
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Date: 2020-04-09 10:16 pm (UTC)no?
why would it be weird
i mean i get the Thing and all
but i'm pretty sure that's not gonna be a dealbreaker for her
she's a witch right?
pretty sure she's coped with some WEIRD ass shit in her time
besides you deserve to be happy too
why not kill two birds with one stone and be happy together?
especially if being together makes you both happy
it's flawless logic and you know it :)
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Date: 2020-04-10 04:36 am (UTC)And she's dealt with some really weird stuff before
She's not easily scared off from things, honestly she's.. like the bravest person I've ever met
[ Just some more gentle gushing over Luna's Greatness; this is fine. ]
I don't know though
I'm not even sure what going on a date with someone even means
Like I don't want to put some kind of weird pressure on anything
I think she's probably the best friend I've ever had
But it would be nice to take her out
Just to have fun and relax, somewhere safe
I already found a good place, I think?
I heard the arcade was nice and safe
[ ...It sure sounds like Peter already was forming plans for this and just kind of needed one last round of Talking It Out with someone else who isn't just his own mind. Because his own mind tends to be very negative and shut him down quickly. But sounding it out against Louis? This is... this is really nice. He's still Riddled With Worries, but he's starting to feel those pleasant fuzzies again now. ]
I don't think they have stuff like that where she's from, so it could be fun?
I think she'd like playing games
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Date: 2020-04-10 06:34 pm (UTC)and she's not gone running from you yet, right?
that strongly suggests to me that she's not about to bail on you
and you can go easy
it doesn't have to be mad declarations of love right away
feel out the waters
maybe a little flirt here or there
and maybe once you feel comfortable
ask her for a really simple date
like yeah the arcade!
it's super low pressure
you can just have fun together and don't have to do the couple stuff
and you can teach her a thing or two
toes counts as bonding
[He will happily be a romance sounding board for the rest of his days. ]
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Date: 2020-04-11 06:44 am (UTC)Thing
yet
She knows I go weird sometimes, like uh. Have "attacks"
But not the Thing exactly
[ Actually, unbeknownst to him, although Luna might not know it's a demon inhabiting his body, she has in fact talked to Paimon and is one of the few people who actually knows his name. Peter...doesn't even know that much yet. Somehow it's suiting that Luna actually knows more about this than he does. ]
But she hasn't run away yet, you're right
There's a lot I need to tell her
I just need to figure some things out first
Flirt?? Please tell me you're joking
We don't all have your charming charisma
But thanks man, I do honestly appreciate the feedback
I don't know what I'm doing. Ever
What kind of things did you and Clem do together?
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